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RelapseIt’s like counting
Saturn’s rings,
hash marks
along your limbs -
remembering a time
when

‘just one more’

made you feel better.

- & you’re sitting there
wondering why
Draco, stuck in limbo
always looks like he’s

falling.

Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

FrostbiteNumbness
I can’t feel my toes and at first I think
It’s just my toes.
I can cover them up.
I can warm them.

It spreads, like fire,
Like ice.
I glance away for a second, it seems, and my feet are cold
Pat –pat
That’s funny, I didn’t feel that
Maybe I’ll cover them up too
I’ll warm them up.

I’ll take a nap
Maybe a short rest will make it all better, warm them
Up…
What’s that? How long has it been?
My legs… are you still mine..
Why has my breath left me, short?
Has everything but deserted me?

What about you, are you still here?
Are you still with me?
Hello?
And before I can say goodbye, I think my thoughts are leaving me too –

Sleeping Beautyshe’s in love with a character who
never existed but in the labyrinth of her head:
a patchwork composition of beautiful, lengthy words
she’d heard in her catatonic state; coma living
day in and day out, reliant on the salvation
of a man made of foreign wishing
and imperfection and necessity – an ignorance
of the less than ideal perception of self she’d
come to fear, absention stained romantic to the point
where daydreams were a standard for survival

(real living is for the purposeful of heart,
he loves her in her sleep)

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

WorthlessWorthless,
the name that cuts like a knife,
Me,
it's all that you see inside,
My heart,
is breaking with every breath I take
The lies,
the only thing I can't seem to face.

In The Daylight

In The Daylight

A false downfall
An unexpected revival

Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness

Life...redefined
Death...redesigned

In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
-
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest

I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic

I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid

A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete

Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrat

Happily AloneHonesty,
She does not have,
Personalities,
She has many of them.

A million shields,
a million personalities,
She's always changing,
to fit every person around her.

If one were to ask why,
she would answer with,
I will never reveal my weaknesses,
because she's evil.

She hates everyone,
stupider than her is barely tolerable,
smarter than her is too scary,
She hates it all.

She leaves the world behind,
To one she has dreamt of,
No color,
nobody else.

Then,
she will smile,
why,
because she is truly happy alone.

She is not evil,
She does not hate you,
She is not dishonest,
She simply wants to be alone.

Battle in my MindEat.
Don't eat.
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
You're perfect.
You're worthless.
You're beautiful.
You're disgusting.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
Show me.
No!
I love you..

wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

Honesty Written

from the

heart.

No eraser.

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

PerfectEver had the feeling where you can't stop looking at a picture?
Your gorgeous face makes me smile
Go weak at the knees
Makes me giggle like a little girl

Those morning texts
All day conversations
Random silly things like that
Make me smile

I see the led light flash the colours I've set for when I get a message from you
My heart flutters
My cheeks flush
I go deaf to the world when I'm reading a message from you

If your down
I'm always there for you
I know you don't want to worry me
I know you want me to smile
But I'm always here for you
No matter how you feel
I'd prefer to help
Than for you to be down

Your gorgeous eyes
Are mesmerising
You

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white christmas

So many people wish
for it to snow on
christmas eve and day

when the snow falls
all is covered by
a snowy veil

so many wishes
come true
during a white
christmas day

light and dark

it's been a long time
since i've seen you
after you abandoned me
left for the dark side

i'm from the light
you from the dark
light and dark
enemies forever

you left me with fear
for your well being
for you mean the world to me
I'll never forget you

i'm from the light
you from the dark
light and dark
enemies forever

you hurt me with slience
when you left me alone
my partner in the team
why did you hurt me

The darkroad

you never really loved me
you never even looked at me
You never even spoke to me
I don't even know what I did

your supposed to be my Dad
but you left me alone here
heartbroken and dead
you left me to walk
the dark road instead

you never even liked me
you never even listened to me
never even there,
when I needed you

your supposed to be my Dad
but you left me alone here
heartbroken and dead
you left me to walk
the dark road instead

and all throught time
I 'll hate you, never
foregive you
for hurting me
the way that you did

but you left me alone here
heartbroken and dead
you left me to walk
the dark road instead

Wolf's snowlily

As white as the snow
but with a smell so divine
It grows only in snow and ice

but with tender care
it awakens with beauty
is a flower of winter

This cold hearted lily
as white as snow, and
smells so divine, it's
soft and is easily
broken by touch

Many seek this
beautiful lily
but many have
journeyed
throught the
storm that rages
around the water
filled cave, and
all have failed
to reach it.

by a beautiful
snow white wolf
he named the flower
the snowlily

Painful memories

Like a stab in the back
Memories hurt me again
They never seem to stop

They forever taunt me
forever follow me around
Like Scar left behind by,
a monster Who hurt me most

This monster controlling
my family to hurt me too
but my spirit will not
be broken by you creature

for I have a spirit
that will never break
for I've been hurt too
many times over again

The purple Crystal flower

Shining like clear glass
and purple as the
witches eyes

In the shape of a
flower made for me
It's purple gleam
makes me smile

The purple crystal
shaped into a flower
made to mark friendship
you make promises
which you keep

you never let
you friends down
your always there
when they need you

but sometimes your
smile disolves like
salt in boiling water
you never forget

Bad things happen
but they never last
the pain will go soon
Or will it haunt you

Either way the gift
that was given to me
a purple crystal flower
means the world of
friendship to me

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I'm not and you are

by ~Cressalia242, Jul 16, 2012, 12:26:18 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I'm not and you are

I'm not a fangirl, i'm not a stalker
i'm not a idiot, i'm not a demon
you say these things about me
think you're all this and that

in fact you freak of nature
you don't know anything
not anymore, i've changed
I'm not fragile and weak
i'm stand for what right
you say many things which
are never to be right

you can say this and that
but you're never correct
you're always wrong, you're
in fact judgemental and nuts

people might like you
but I can't stand you
I want to paint you
with a demons claw

Like a taunting memory
which never stops swirling
round like the hands of a clock
you say many things of me
but you'll always be an idiot

I'm not and you areby ~Cressalia242

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I wrote this poem becasue people say one thing, but they aren't alwasy right, in fact sometimes they're just idiots that and compltly wrong

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~Kay-March Jul 19, 2012

tell it like it is.

~Cressalia242 Jul 20, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

^_^

~Kay-March Jul 20, 2012

~Cressalia242 Jul 21, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

for you my deviant sister, and I thank you for mine

^-^

~Kay-March Jul 22, 2012

Thank you sweetie!!!

~Cressalia242 Jul 23, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

You've been hugged!
Spread the DA love around!

RULES:
You can hug the person who hugged you!
You -MUST- hug 6 other people, at least!
You should hug them in public! Paste it on their user page!
Random hugs are perfectly okay!
You should most definitely get started hugging right away!

Send This To All Your Friends, And Me If I Am 1, On Second thought, Please give one back.
If You Get 7 Back You Are Loved

~Kay-March Jul 23, 2012

Gabriela, send me the message also, thank you dear, and enjoy the 1st

~Cressalia242 Jul 25, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

yay, I like hugs, ^-^ and i'm happy to have sent it to you

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